to explain my earlier post
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x_studentsI don't like this punishment. It's not that I don't think I did anything wrong, I knew I was drinking illegally when I chose to do so. But I don't like being confined to grounds.
I've only been here a little over a week and I've only been off campus twice, once to get a dress for the semiformal and then the semi-formal itself, both on the same day. But to have that freedom...I haven't had that in so long.
Before I came here, my mom basically locked me in the house. I had the entire house to myself most of the day and never any visitors. Occassionally she'd drive me to my dad's house where I could be locked in there. They weren't trying to be cruel or mean, they just didn't want me hurt. But it may as well have been a prison sentence to solitary with daytime TV.
This feels the same way and I hate it. Yeah, it's only a week and no, I don't have plans to go anywhere, but that isn't the point really. I wouldn't mind some other form of punishment...but this just hurts.
so yeah. not asking it to be changed either, just trying to explain why I'm prolly not going to the be the most pleasant in the next week or so.
fuck-tastic.
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Date: 2004-01-03 09:24 pm (UTC)I know the feeling, though. Three years pretty much stuck on the farm except for the occasional errand once I got my license and mostly had my power under control most of the time. Cows all sort of start to look the same after a while.
Hey, do you know how to ride horses? Because they have them here. And if you don't, wanna learn? It'd be something to do.
And then you can help me haul Kitty out to the stables too, I keep saying I want to take her riding and she keeps finding ways to distract me from actually doing it. ;)
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Date: 2004-01-03 09:28 pm (UTC)we shall have to go one day then
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Date: 2004-01-03 10:12 pm (UTC)We can give you a nice calm horse and not go very fast, or bring Paige along because she jumps things. Rahne didn't get bruised, as far as I know. And it's fun. And if your legs get stiff we can do something about that afterward. :)
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Date: 2004-01-04 08:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-04 09:51 am (UTC)I think Monday is just going to be me showing Clarice the trails, though, and we can all gang up on Kitty some other time.
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Date: 2004-01-04 09:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-04 09:57 am (UTC)And sorry about the misunderstanding. I do like going riding with you, it's just Kitty's nervous already and sometimes you get a little carried away.
I wouldn't mind starting to learn how to jump stuff, though, unless we should wait until the snow's gone for that.
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Date: 2004-01-04 11:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-04 03:12 pm (UTC)Oh! And if you want, if it'd make you feel more comfortable right at first, I bet we could probably share a horse, neither of us is very heavy and they're strong, and that would probably make it harder to fall off. And it'd be easier to show you how to use the reins and things like that.
. . . Although, y'know, come to think of it, we probably shouldn't do that for very long, because with the horse moving, and stuff, that would get . . . embarrassing. Quickly. Um. But we can give it a try if you want.
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Date: 2004-01-04 03:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-04 05:04 pm (UTC)If you must be depressed and angry...
Date: 2004-01-05 07:52 am (UTC)do you think you could do it away from me?
I have enough problems dealing with how _I_ feel. I don't want to feel what you feel. I don't _like_ your feelings. Your feelings suck. And if you insist on moping and swearing, I can insure, for your sanity and _mine_, that you _like_ your current predicament.
After all, I like being happy. It's so rare for me. I've had my fill of depression and anger. If I wanted to be angry, I'd invite the groundskeeper up for siesta.
~translated from the Castillian Spanish~
MdlR
Re: If you must be depressed and angry...
Date: 2004-01-05 11:28 am (UTC)Re: If you must be depressed and angry...
Date: 2004-01-05 01:25 pm (UTC)One way or the other, it _will_ go away.
~translated from the Castillian Spanish~
MdlR
Re: If you must be depressed and angry...
Date: 2004-01-05 10:14 pm (UTC)fuck that. I'm sorry my feelings hurt you, but y'know what? THEY'RE MY FEELINGS. I'm not going to supress how I feel.
maybe you should see about supressing your powers, might be easier.
Suppress my powers?
Date: 2004-01-06 12:28 pm (UTC)Sure. Just as soon as _you_ take the thorazine up the ass first. So that you can understand how I feel, of course.
And, for the record, they're not your feelings. When I'm in range, they're _my_ feelings too. As I don't especially like how you feel, and I don't want to feel that way ... figure it all out.
MdlR
~translated from the Castillian Spanish~
Re: Suppress my powers?
Date: 2004-01-06 02:09 pm (UTC)bother the others who aren't happy as well, share the pain. If you need some help in the right direction, I'll point out Cain Marko, Rogue, Sarah and Jono. They're just as ill-tempered as I am.