The X-Project

I don't like this punishment. It's not that I don't think I did anything wrong, I knew I was drinking illegally when I chose to do so. But I don't like being confined to grounds.

I've only been here a little over a week and I've only been off campus twice, once to get a dress for the semiformal and then the semi-formal itself, both on the same day. But to have that freedom...I haven't had that in so long.

Before I came here, my mom basically locked me in the house. I had the entire house to myself most of the day and never any visitors. Occassionally she'd drive me to my dad's house where I could be locked in there. They weren't trying to be cruel or mean, they just didn't want me hurt. But it may as well have been a prison sentence to solitary with daytime TV.

This feels the same way and I hate it. Yeah, it's only a week and no, I don't have plans to go anywhere, but that isn't the point really. I wouldn't mind some other form of punishment...but this just hurts.

so yeah. not asking it to be changed either, just trying to explain why I'm prolly not going to the be the most pleasant in the next week or so.

fuck-tastic.